Over the Verge
After 3rd year, there was too many things happen during that semester that i have completely lost it. The moment i came back to school as semester starts, i have already lost all passion in architecture and the drive to even push.
I admit that this semester is kind of relax, but i felt it was not an excuse for me and the time to snooze off like this. Due to whatever excuse/reason i can come up with, i think i have complete lost it all.
Here comes the worst part, as much as i do not want to give up. I want to complete this whole damn thing once and for all, there was no drive in whatever im doing and i have no intention to continue on this dreadful career. I realise my health, family, friends & rock climbing of cause is more important to me, which i want to continue pursuing the things i love most more than architecture. At the age of 26 this year, I am still single and i havent got the chance to date a girl yet. This is another reason why i want to refocus on my well-being other than my career, which could potentially earn me quite a sum but i guess the interaction with friends and families are more important to me.
For a long time, i wont mind living without much money without the need for luxury. Instead, i rather i live happily and simply with my family and friends.
With that said, Im having this consideration of not having to complete my Masters as i think there isnt a need for me to have it. If i am going after another lifestyle or career opportunities.
Dont get me wrong as i still love doing designing and making stuff. Is just that studying and the things that NUS have done to me, have pull me so far apart from architecture i have to refocus and regroup my thoughts. I think i have come so far from EM3/Normal Tech/ ITE/Poly now an Year 4 undergraduate, i felt i have no need to prove anything to anyone anymore. Hence, why this could be my biggest problem, as i felt i have made it this far there isnt anything to prove anyone wrong anymore.
Having that said, i guess if i give up right now this could only open opportunity for an open invitation of discrimination again. As much as i hate to continue, i need to get my shit together QUICK before it is too late.
A little encourage along the way will be nice.
I admit that this semester is kind of relax, but i felt it was not an excuse for me and the time to snooze off like this. Due to whatever excuse/reason i can come up with, i think i have complete lost it all.
Here comes the worst part, as much as i do not want to give up. I want to complete this whole damn thing once and for all, there was no drive in whatever im doing and i have no intention to continue on this dreadful career. I realise my health, family, friends & rock climbing of cause is more important to me, which i want to continue pursuing the things i love most more than architecture. At the age of 26 this year, I am still single and i havent got the chance to date a girl yet. This is another reason why i want to refocus on my well-being other than my career, which could potentially earn me quite a sum but i guess the interaction with friends and families are more important to me.
For a long time, i wont mind living without much money without the need for luxury. Instead, i rather i live happily and simply with my family and friends.
With that said, Im having this consideration of not having to complete my Masters as i think there isnt a need for me to have it. If i am going after another lifestyle or career opportunities.
Dont get me wrong as i still love doing designing and making stuff. Is just that studying and the things that NUS have done to me, have pull me so far apart from architecture i have to refocus and regroup my thoughts. I think i have come so far from EM3/Normal Tech/ ITE/Poly now an Year 4 undergraduate, i felt i have no need to prove anything to anyone anymore. Hence, why this could be my biggest problem, as i felt i have made it this far there isnt anything to prove anyone wrong anymore.
Having that said, i guess if i give up right now this could only open opportunity for an open invitation of discrimination again. As much as i hate to continue, i need to get my shit together QUICK before it is too late.
A little encourage along the way will be nice.
