Still Trying my Best

Sometimes i dont know whether am i still fucking lazy or what... Feeling that im not pushing myself to my limit point or this is already my limit that i could handle !
Could not manage to fight any harder as such as i wanted myself expected or am i expecting too much of myself !? Trying so hard to find a concept this days and it became so hard that i feel like let go of what i am doing sometimes and found that im not the type of person who is suitable for this kinda stuff rather that im interested in doing something else, or is this just what every single architecture students or architects is thinking or feeling like.

But im still will try my very best to strive for the best defining all odds no matter what i will graduate from SP ! With my Diploma of Architecture Certificate !

6 years of blogger

Wow... After awhile i jsut realise that i have been blogging in this blog for 6 years already ! Even or if there is anyone coming into my blog and read it ?! I dont really bother much as i have to write whatever the hack i wanna as this is liek a person platform for me to write whatever i  what but not to a extent where this is like a place to write some thing to humiliate people.

I have just finish my Semester 1 for Poly which is where there is like another half a year more to go.... YAY !!! Or ='( Poly is ending so fast already ! Just a blink of an eye everything just flew past like this and it is 2 and a half years gone of time.
I do not know have i put in any effort im my work for the past few weeks in sch as tmr will be my JC2 (Joint Critique) aka Presentation and it shall be my result of whatever i have in my hands. As i move on to whatever im doing i will tried to inspire people who are the same scenario where i came from a EM3, Normal Tech and ITE student where everyone looks down on us every single day whether we are stupid or just because of that god damn ranking of EM1 EM2 EM3 shit... Still frustrated with this shit after 10 years....

Since this is the last and final year i will try to push my mindset a little more to force myself to get a better task done then what i have before ! I am not challenging anyone else by myself.

Why people this days dont learn from their mistakes ?

Still dont understand until today why the class is so damn competitive... Design is suppose to be individual and also the way how u going to interpret your thoughts into design.

I see other classes are like telling their design ideas and showing off their plans and stuff to their friends and asking for opinion and critique each other designs. It is not like i seen your design im so gonna do something like yours, god please, if u truly think ur a designer you dont follow a person idea no matter what unless it is ur last resort to do so go ahead man and make sure whoever ur idea is stolen from etc just let him know it a certain form of designer courtesy.

I dont really understand why when i wanna ask for help from another they listen and not talk ! Im like wtf is wrong with you guys. So competitive for fuck !
Individual work ma... You get A+ I cannot get A+ meh ?! Wtf is wrong with the people today... Back in ITE and Secondary sch where me and my friends was like... Trying our very best to teach and help each other to make our way to Poly or whatever the hell u wanna go.... We are good in what we help in what, come to this area where this people are around im certainly shock by the way each and everyone is so self centered and every man for themselves.

Each and every man for themselves, YES ! by when your friends are in stuck or anything they u can help out why not help alittle just throw in ur little hand and pull your friend up for the fuck sake of living him there and rot like fuck ! DUDE!!! FOR FUCK SAKE !! Not everyone is a fucking genius even certainly you !

Even you do not know how to solve that little problem i couldnt solved at least give some suggestion or what you think of the design i could have done it better ! Isnt learning is from learning from others mistakes ?! Dude i made mistakes as well, not like you dont !

To the people are like this.... Stop being so self centered !! Time to learn your mistakes by people comments ! Sometimes people say things for a reason not to insult you or whatever ! They have a reason before they speak !