Story of Nothing to Something
This post will be about more of a mind set and self discipline on how i achieve towards my aim and goal entering poly... And even after entering.....
People often said they build their castle like a dreams starting from just a piece of brick !! For people like me ain't really fortunate where i have to start of with dirt !
I would say not everyone in the world is perfect.... Mistakes are meant to be made and most of the time there is a tremendous mistakes that could hunt you for your life time this will be excluding love relationship =) Haha....
This mistake i made was during my childhood, i wouldn't say i had a screwed up childhood or i didn't have a great time during those days.
But in fact the truth is.... Primary school days are the best in my life & also it hunt me through my life, because we're so young we doesn't think before speaking or doing. Basically i could just say, we're just a retarded or dumb kids at those days ! Why ?! I played that much in the past after school hang out with friends when normal kids would be at home doing their homework while i stay outside playing void deck catching etc... And when i reached home, homework ain't my type of thing when i turned straight to the TV and other stuff to keep me company.
During Pri 5-6, it was rather worst then what i could expect. I started learning how to smoke as young as Pri 6 already and people asked where do i get my cigarette from ?! I steal frrom my father cigarette like a few sticks all the time, and ended up mixing with the wrong company too.
I smoke for quite awhile till i reached Sec 1 and i cut down abit.... And still mixed a little still with some wrong company. Often get into lame troubles and fights with classmates, but honestly speaking the fights i got into was this Malay guy just tried to find trouble with me and i called my army down and he was terrified like a pussy !!
Until near the end of Sec 2, i was quite waken to a sense where i should actually stopped all this nonsense and start doing something right ! This was also the time where most parents discriminate Normal Tech students where just all gangsters and people who run around and finding trouble. Totally not true.... People find troubles with us... In the first place... Why u so stupid wanna find trouble just to get yourself into a fight and putting your life on the line ?!
For a minute, this just literally made those parents sounded much more stupid then how they discriminate a NT student.....
Sec 3..... Waken up.... Thanks to my Private Maths tutor.... Where sometimes he didnt taught me anything about maths at all... We just sit down.... and he talk about his life and people life he seen and aided them as well as mine..... Rule number 1 : Always be positive but nv be over confident....
Results in Sec 3 paper marks getting better and in fact top in class for some subjects....
Just to increase a little WOW effect here !! I was not waken to a point where i really chiong in my studies 101% I was still a hardcore gamer at that point of time where i played really lots of games.... DotA & Maple was the hottest at that time.... It was from Diablo 2 to Gunbound to Sims to anything that can get my hands on.... Until DotA and Maple was famous ! Those were between Pri 6 - Sec 1 When i was a hang of what is GAMING ! =)
Until Sec 4, I made myself cleared that despite the discrimination from all the teachers / parents from the past about my background when i was EM3 student and a NT student.... I decided to bury this discrimination with what i can do to shut them up once and for all, and in fact i think i left a pretty bad image to most teachers leaving the sec sch.
And when i was settle down with my friends at the school hall waiting for them to settle up papers and pass to us.... Before even i knew anything they announced my name and I scored 3 distinction for a NT stream, and it was in the school history where no one scored that much before ! Until the syllabus changed which i was the last batch of NT students where the syllabus has changed after my batch.
Why did i said like a few mins ago, I actually left a bad impression to the teachers when leaving the sec school ?! Oh well pretty much the nonsense i done and the way i talk and humiliate the teachers there when they are teaching, and i leave the sec with a pretty nice vandalism disciplinary actions.... Destroying a book shelves by throwing punchers and kicks at it.... After that stupid incident all the teachers in the school mostly look me down like a piece of dirt and i pretty much shut their traps up with my N level results. In my mind, not being a showoff but i still know this results doesnt take me far in fact my friends who did real bad for N Levels ended up in ITE the same as I do where everything is equal again !
After i left Secondary school, i know that my road doesn't end there were I know there is still a chance for me to enter Poly if i carry on with this determination. I entered ITE with a not so welcome way, where my secondary school form teacher actually helps me email the director / principal of the course of what im interested but was rejected twice ! And with the aid of my teacher she come to my rescue and i was allowed to study at ITE when i almost unable to study in ITE.... And was retarded-ly rejected for having such a good N-level grades.... Pretty much a wow huh ?!
Before entering ITE, I was already aware and clear of the study environment of how screw up the place is and how would this affect me if I made a wrong turn again ! Luckily, my friends in ITE was great, they could actually win me with the amount of nonsense they do hands down.... And i was glad i knew i didn't had that quality to become a nonsense type of people as well as them.... Haha....
They was all great, they respect people decision as what we really want. As i quitted smoking for like a few years already they didnt really force me or pursuit me to start again !
I know ITE wouldn't be a easy road out where it was a totally new studying environment already to me where the teachers there doesnt care about you as much as sec sch.... They do concern you, but their ain't your father or mother to lecture you what is right and wrong at this point of age you should jolly well know it yourself where your maturing into a young adult world already ! To my opinion, ITE actually ain't really hard to cope where it is still around the same work load as sec school ! In fact ITE is really something really funny when everyone was so crazy and people who wanna go into Poly as much as I do.... Work really really very hard together and we helped each other to get our way there ! Friends feel happy for me when i ended up where i am right now and at the same time i felt pretty bad for most of my friend when they fight as hard as me to entered Poly but didnt manage to get in ! During the days in my ITE, i played quite a bit of games but i controlled myself and play when i have free times like holidays pretty much cut down the hardcore type where last time i didn't sleep and played like crazy and ended up sleeping for only 2-4hours max only !
While at ITE I played when friends asked me or when we're bored !
Although i do really get a good grades for my ITE GPA, i still really concern for my admission into Poly like my life is on the line. Like i said, nv be over confident although having a positive mind set.
When i enter Poly, I made it clear to myself where this is a platform where i can get a new start, a new life, a new beginning !!!
And yes it's truly a brand new start where I have decent friends and people who look up to me as the same as them despite us having different study background i have in the past !! Could nv asked anything better then that....
Other then those, i still can tell there are still people who looked down on me when i entered Poly during the early period when i said i was a ITE student and i can tell people just looked at me like a piece of trash !! Oh well.... Doesnt really bother me.... i just gotta do my thing and graduate with a certificate in my hand that is all i need whether i do good or bad the outcome will still be the same when i walk out of Poly with a certificate !
Of cause i just have to replaced something with gaming... And i picked up a new sports, Rock Climbing where i love the thrill and adrenaline when your climbing up on heights.
For the first year, i see people in the course slacking and not doing their work and they totally just reminded me of myself and i could not even dare to slack and even think of being or living like the past over again ! It is like.... I came this far not just to see myself fail again ! If i want to see myself fail... I rather at least must put on a good fight, which at least if u fail u know u did try and you should work harder the next time round ! And i came to this conclusion when you see yourself really fall.... This is when you realise your stupid and you just gotta give it a fight to get yourself back up onto feet and start over again !! And your just basically wasting your own precious time ! Like me i wasted 2 years in ITE and entered poly where i should have entered poly like 1 year earlier if im in Normal Academic stream...
My first year grades when very well and super happy with it so far ! And trying my best to maintain the good grades i had so far and pushing my limits towards the extreme state. With all this good grades come with great sacrifices (lol... sound like spiderman) yeah.... Quiting gaming for like almost a year and then devoted my life into studies and work.... Friends think im crazy... Asked why i so hardworking ?? And the only answer i could give them is... Try living my life !! Honestly speaking.... How i wish to be them right now instantly.... Easy as it could be !! O level... Intelligent foundation then I am.... English like one cock like that.... COME ON !!! Even being a policemen in SG at least need a O level !! See the point now ?! N level is totally useless !! And when i used my NITEC cert and tried applying a temp job ! Is totally useless they don't even care about you having that NITEC cert what they really care is whether do u have a Diploma Cert.....
That is when i realise i had to work hard and i need to get outta of Poly at least with a cert.... But the funny point is.... When i was in ITE all i care about is me getting into Poly.... And now it is like the same cycle ! Where im in Poly right now and all i care about is getting into University when i didnt even think about it when i was in Sec sch or ITE !! AT ALL !!! Not a single thought !
Now my very main goal is to get into University and if i do get into University and graduate ! I will try write a book of myself... Perhaps my "Story of Nothing to Something" can be a little more complete with that with me... and there is another 1 and a half years more to go in Poly which there are more to be written !
Things that always bear in my mind, Bruce Lee once said : "I had nv said i'm 1st & I had nv said i'm 2nd !!! " Never let people look down on you where you should only care about is yourself !
